2002-10-23 - 7:59 a.m.

I'm denying myself breakfast until I finish my entry. This sounds kind of harsh, but I'm remembering that eating before my entry lead to me forgetting to write an entry one morning, so I'd rather avoid having that happen again.

Lately I've started to feel like I have a lot less energy. I know I got plenty of sleep before my day started yesterday, and yet I was still tired at badminton last night. Not only that but I was just.. out of it somehow. For one thing I was mentally unfocused and had a hard time striking the bird well, and besides that I was snarky and anti-social. It's strange because I feel so good in my daily life and I'm basically happy.. why am I having these troubles? I worry that it's a problem with my diet or that I'm sick with some subtle disease. I think I must be a hypochondriac.

Work was slow yesterday, same as Monday. At least I didn't spend as long playing games as I did on Monday. The first day of the week saw me beating "Impossible Mission" for the Commodore 64 :o) Yesterday I only played through 1 level of "Space Taxi" because the second level was too hard hehehe. I did get through the first level - Interference - without losing a taxi though, which is pretty cool. Not as cool as doing the same on say Fast Break or Blizzard, but I need to celebrate my small victories.

I remember even last night I thought about what I had done in the evening and realized it wasn't a lot. I mean, got home, ate dinner, played Diablo 2, went to badminton, home, shower and bed. Why doesn't that seem like a full night? What is it I feel like I'm missing? Should I have worked on something? Cleaned the toilet? Discovered some new Mathematical theorem? Considering that if I hadn't changed my ways I'd very likely spend the whole evening getting baked and watching visualizations or downloading porn, shouldn't I be happy with what I'm doing these days?

Speaking of porn hehe.. yesterday I received the onerous task of trying to download a "training video" from Gnutella. Training video meaning some kind of movie you would watch to help you learn how to do something on a computer, supposedly used as part of an online course. I've heard of these training movies but never actually seen on. Anyway. So I did a search for "training" and a search for "office". Out of the 100 or so matches that were found, at least 70 were porn, and only 1 title seemed likely - "video professor computer training".

After waiting for 40 minutes for that movie to download, I found out that the video professor is some guy with a big black dick giving it to some woman.

As a last ditch effort I tried searching for MCSE and figured I was in luck when a few likely matches showed up. MCSE.asf .. oops, porn. MCSE & MCSA.avi? Porn. 0-mcse.asf? Porn. Ok, screw it. No training videos to be found.

Hmm.. almost 8. I want to get going and eat. I checked the old messages yesterday and found out there Sue is in town and that she left a message on Sunday. I asked Mark to please write down when a message was on the machine for me and that I'd do the same. I can't complain cause I should just check them anyway. It's only cause I lived alone that I leave messages on the machine for a while and only check them when there are new ones. Anyway, it was kind of upsetting because Sue was in town on the symphony night and she would have been the perfect person to use that last extra ticket that we had. If only I had remember to call her when I got home. Anyhow, we're likely going to get together some time soon so that's cool.

Not much else. I'm driving to work today. Again. Don't know why, but it's the same no-energy feeling all around. No energy to bike, no energy to write entries. Bleah. This will sort itself out soon, I'm sure. Simplify, simplify, simplify.

G'day.

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